I’d like to kick back against the “you’ll just know” crowd. Because sometimes you don’t. You have to make a decision and hope it’s the right one. And you may question yourself for years to come.
It’s the cost of doing something important. It’s the cost of love. And as hard as it is, it’s a price worth paying.
I wish the very best to you in caring for Gunner and continuing to make the best decisions you can on his behalf.
]]>Guinness was fine for a few months, but December rolled around and other tumor showed up on his leg. We were at my parent’s for Christmas and Guinness wasn’t putting weight on his leg. We came home the day after Christmas and immediately brought him back into the specialists. They said that they could do surgery, remove the tumor, do more chemo, and manage the pain, but that Guinness probably only had 6 months left. The year that they had initially given Guinness had dropped to a total of 8 months.
So, for the next 6 months (maybe), Guinness would have to have surgery, be in pain some pain no matter how well it was managed, have to have several chemo treatments, and have a tough time walking on his leg for about 4 weeks after surgery. The questions rolling through my head were…will another tumor show up? How long will he be in pain? How much of the last 6 months of his life will he actually be able to enjoy? Would I want to live like that for the last 6 months of my life?
It was clear to me that Guinness deserved better, and to be in a better place. It was one of the most difficult decisions I’ve ever had to make.
As Mike G. said, it will be clear to you when it is time. Enjoy the time you have with Gunner while you have it!
Teddy
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